Times I Couldn’t Say No

I’ve slept with too many guys because I was afraid.

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I’m wondering what will happen if they try to rape me. It’s five against one. We’re on an isolated mountain path. No one could hear me if I called out. If they rape me, the logical thing to do would be to kill me. Rape carries the death penalty in India. It isn’t enforced very well, but it would be for a foreigner. Colonial history cuts deep. Structural…